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I'm pretty sure the only evidence I have that Christ is at work in my life is that I want evidence that Christ is at work in my life. Don't most of you believer types at least have something in your life to show for it? I know historically I haven't cared nearly as much, but I'm concerned lately with trophies and prizes, with objective measures of worth and value for my life that I can measure in the present. Even things like influence and respect, what might have once been called gravitas, are sought after but rarely found prizes these days. Maybe it's because I can't stop feeling like a sell-out no matter what I do anymore.