Vanity of vanities, says Qoheleth, vanity of vanities!

Was with Matty, Alice, Katie, and Rai yesterday. It was a blast, and I wouldn't trade time like that for anything. But at the same time I kept wanting to be sick, or yell, or something. It was the same feeling I get at school - like I'm a tolerated outsider who kind of showed up but doesn't belong rather than part of things, the way I used to be. I know they don't feel that way, but I felt so out of place, like going into a house you used to live in after someone else moves in.

And yet, it was a great time, and I want to do it again as soon as possible. I'll be writing a story about the Crew for Alice, and I'll most likely be using it to restart my old writing journal. More on that as things develop.

Anyway, I guess all I have to say is I love you all.