![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Sep. 11th, 2005 11:41 pmI have asked some of you this already, but even if I have I'd like it if everyone would answer.
What do you think defines me? What characteristic of mine stands out?
I have been having some major doubts about myself. It's my journal. I'm going to list some in no particular order. You may respond if you so chose, but don't feel compeled to.
I can't get my damn essay written.
I don't have any motivation to go to school. Seriously, there's nothing there at all to make or keep me happy, interested, or even sane. I like it not.
I don't know if I really believe in God, or if it is just some intellectual exercise disguising itself as faith in my confuséd brain.
I lost one of the most important things I own. I feel like a stupid dumbass motherfucker.
I feel ugly and undesireable. I feel like no one could ever want me. I feel like I will always be ugly and totally inadequate. I can't please someone, I can't be there for them no matter what, I can't love them enough, I can't turn their head or turn them on, I can't be sexy or pretty, I can't woo them, I can't romance them, I can't do anything. I'm stuck being not enough. I doomed to that fate.
What do you think defines me? What characteristic of mine stands out?
I have been having some major doubts about myself. It's my journal. I'm going to list some in no particular order. You may respond if you so chose, but don't feel compeled to.
I can't get my damn essay written.
I don't have any motivation to go to school. Seriously, there's nothing there at all to make or keep me happy, interested, or even sane. I like it not.
I don't know if I really believe in God, or if it is just some intellectual exercise disguising itself as faith in my confuséd brain.
I lost one of the most important things I own. I feel like a stupid dumbass motherfucker.
I feel ugly and undesireable. I feel like no one could ever want me. I feel like I will always be ugly and totally inadequate. I can't please someone, I can't be there for them no matter what, I can't love them enough, I can't turn their head or turn them on, I can't be sexy or pretty, I can't woo them, I can't romance them, I can't do anything. I'm stuck being not enough. I doomed to that fate.
